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Saturday, December 31, 2011
Ahhh school is reopening. 3 weeks fly so fast. Idw school to reopen. There will be tons of projects and tutorials to do. So sucky. Hate it hate it. Yeah and happy new year eve everyone (: my laptop is back yay baby~ Awww people is going intern ship next march T.T Me too but still no info updated about it. Sad. Thursday, December 29, 2011
OIIIIIIIIII when my lappy okay. why haven call me RAWR. so lazy to blog via desktop. Maybe I will blog via phone when I have time XD And why is he self entertaining himself in whatsapp? Joke. It's getting irritating when they mass talk there. It gets spam and vibrate non stop. Last time the mass chat in kakao also like that. I off away the notifications and didn't reply them. Now they seldom talk. IRRITATING MAX. And and Infinite + MBLAQ stage so awesome XD <3 them. Namwoo (: But stream is so lagging and I miss the smtown perf T.T I want to see Yunho ): I find fanwars so ridiculous. If you don't like a group just shut up, don't need to go around bashing the group and telling people you hate them. Nobody force you to like them. People have different opinions just respect that. Bashing others will make ur own group. Tsk it's just so overrated. I think I will somehow quit but only listen to the songs for kpop. It's just so irritating seeing people quarreling over these stuff -.- Last time also not like that, tsk. Sunday, December 25, 2011
MERRY CHRISTMAS HOHOHO. Okay, actually tbh xmas doesn't really excite me. Nothing to be excited over. It just means school will be reopening soon ): BOHOO. I don't want to know my results. It's almost a month and I still can't believe it. It feels like yesterday. And yes shopping soonnnn XD Thursday, December 22, 2011
Alvin and chipmunks today XD Theodore and Alvin so cuteeeee :D I want to watch Sherlock Holmes next. Went bugis and siannn no nice clothes. Alot of old school clothes. I don't like old school la even though my event need to wear old school. So weird luh ): And I realise, I can sleep till late late if I have a veryyyyyyyyyyyyyy nice dream :D If not I will wake up early. Sian max, I wanna register driving tml but then it's like so last min >: Maybe next week or something. AHHHHHHHHHHHH F&B wait till school reopen settle then need settle logistics now. Walou, these 2 major dept why am I even in charge of these. IDC ler la. I just throw logistics stuff all to Louis let him settle with his member since zm overseas. But why the members keep calling me and ask!! >: kick kick. Why they keep asking me everything. walou, so irritating. Logistics ask me about stuff then the chairman also. RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRR Shut up la just ask chairman la. Walou. So freaking addicted to tetris nowadays. But always no energy and how come they can spam so many lines!! ): And and wh back in SG yay :D But sad she told me can't find baseball jacket there T.T Tuesday, December 20, 2011
I'm so bored staying at home. I wanna go out ): Thursday & Friday I wanna go out. Hmm, if no plans i might go learn driving XD && I want to go shopping so much. BUT NO $$$ ): Also, I don't even know why every time I see my class peeps talking to me on msn or sms or whatsapp, my heart beat especially fast. And it's forever during the night. So not looking forward to the content >: I seriously want all this to get over and done with faster. It's pissing me off. okay ENDURE 1 more MONTH!! ): The worst month T.T But omg Louis so cute when he telling me and complaining about how Giant didn't call him back. He's so funny. He say I'm gonna complain make them compensate us for free. wth-.- haha funny luh why he cannot go down there and see must call for one single thing-.- but he's the only one who is somehow better than the rest. He's so funny lol. I full screen my show he talk to me. I no full screen he no reply me! Then keep asking me you there? tskkk. I wonder how zm update him. hmmm..they better gimme details soon. I need to send proposal!! T.T And his name is like almost the same as my pri school Louis. OMG. Is both Louis ho kit ___ (something). Only the behind different. Monday, December 19, 2011
WTf wtf you should just shut the fuck up. You don't even tell me what you guys want and it's so fucking god damn different. LIKE HELLO, I don't know what the hell you asked them for and then you come and tell me different stuff. LIKE WHAT?! Eh, you just bossing people around, do you know HOW HARD IT IS TO DO ALL THOSE STUFF. The moment I see you guys msg/whatsapp my blood boil. GDI I should just have went overseas this year. SERIOUSLY, so I can escape from all these stuff. FREAKING PISSING ME OFF. NEVERENDING OF HARASSING ME AND TELLING ME TO DO THIS DO THAT. JUST SHUT UP. Sunday, December 18, 2011
Let me say something. First, i'm a scorpio and blood A+. Scorpio 有仇必报 and A+ are 小心眼. I can confirm that I'm totally so like that. I will get revenge on those who treat me bad. It's just a matter of time, so just watch out. I hate empty promises. And all those people who gave me empty promises, you guys better watch out. One day, I will get you. Scorpio rarely if never forgives and forgets. It's not that I don't like to talk, it's just that i'm not a social butterfly. I'm so freaking like a scorpio. It all matches. I didn't say anything, doesn't mean i forgive neither do i forget. I just can't be bothered. Those people that bully me or does what so ever bad things that harm me. You better watch out. I remember every single thing of it. Also, Scorpio are independent. I seriously feel like migrating somewhere else to leave alone. Just get a job in that country and have a simple life. Life is too complicated here. It's just so hard. Everything is moving way too fast. I want to get all those shitty stuff off. I think I will rant something else on my other blog. Anyway the events is really pissing me off big time. fuck u man, u did nothing & expect the rest of us to do the stuff. WOW, your job is so hard uh. Checking proposals. WOW *claps* That's wayyyyyyy harder than what we do right? *claps* I didn't know that is so hard. Piss like mad. This holiday isn't even a holiday FOR ME. PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFT. And if you think i'm being sarcastic ask yourself who started being sarcastic first. THINK first. Saturday, December 17, 2011
What the hell. ___ attitude me. EH HELLO, I ask you for help cos you are under logistic. Are u not? And ___ ask me to send proposal to him what. kns. Anyway, had a weird dream yesterday. Dreamt I went korea with lijun (okay remind me of the band trip there) and idk why we walk till genting. It's kinda weird. The place I went don't look like korea nor genting but I just knew it is there. I woke up and like thinking wth I thought I'm in korea how come end up in genting. Still can't figure it out, so well just gave up. And yesterday just posted about acting pitiful wth tonight a boy that sells ice cream knock on my door when i'm alone and act all pitiful asking me to buy ice cream. 10$ leh. NO WAY. I SO FEEL LIKE SLAPPING HIM. tsk, just can't stand it. Friday, December 16, 2011
Tskkkkkk.I hate it. I can totally rant about stuff till 1Feb. Like really. ): And I hate people that act pitiful with me. I FEEL LIKE SLAPPING THAT PERSON SO DAMN MUCH.No, it's not cute neither will I pity you. I want to kick your damn face if you act pitiful with me. You think acting pitiful good uh. *kick* Next, events stuff. Pfft burger king @ sp never open wts. And seriously, i send emails to the chairman and secretary AND I DIDNT GET A DAMN REPLY. Like fuck man seriously, you know how many emails I've send? Fine la everything I settle then what you two do? Fuck you. I do everything and then you guys act like you did everything? GND.I'm so pissed with you two. I email-ed you to ask you stuff YOU THINK I SO FREE EMAIL YOU ALL TO TALK CRAP IS IT. FINE YOU SHALL SEE HOW I DO MY PROPOSAL. I sms you, ask you how many root beer we need to buy, then everything we decide. Fine la, I decide everything then that day not enough don't blame me okay. I ASKED YOU GUYS. Can't you at least give an opinion? And my group members. pfft, only grace is trustable. One overseas and another, forget it she totally didn't do anything. Even for tutorials always late hand up till we so pekchek. Wh & me so damn pissed that we wanted to remove her name if she didn't do it again. PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFT. This is my place to rant for now till 1feb. I can't calm down till after the event. Tuesday, December 13, 2011
GRRR the fuq. I swear the chairman and secretary are not doing anything. Kns, can they help to find or call or not. EVERYTHING throw to me and they just talk talk talk. GND please. Send in proposals by 23dec then 20dec ask me go your house for party. LIKE HELLO, you think i'm so free?! I don't want to go okay. EVERY single thing ask me to do. You all two can't help is it? You've got the lighting company number cannot help to call is it? Everything want me call. Zheming & amirah not in town. Then I can't pass to zheming to help call. I still need call F&b stuff leh. Cannot help find ice pop is it. And those kns members ALL EAT SHIT LA. All dk how help is it. Then ask you all, all talk crap talk this talk that THEN DK HELP FIND AH. OI TALK I ALSO KNOW WHAT. GIVE IDEA I ALSO CAN ASK YOU ALL FIND TAKE GOD DAMN FUCKING LONG. Just go eat shit la you all _l_ I AM SO PISS. ANYWAY I DO ALL THE WORK, THEN FOR THE EVENTS CAN THEY NOT BE GRADED. JUST FAIL THEM. FML. Monday, December 12, 2011
Prepared for a ranting post,just skip if not interested. ARGH MST OVER AND NOW I HAVE TO SETTLE THE EVENTS F&B STUFF _l_oh god damn it. I hate doing this kind of stuff. AND THOSE WTF members in my group. NEVER EVEN HELP LIKE HELLO I EMAIL-ED ALL TO YOU ALL AND NEVER EVEN HAVE A SINGLE REPLY. OI FUCK YOU ALL MAN, YOUR EMAIL FAKE DE AH. KNS, NEVER HELP STILL DARE SAY THIS SAY THAT. OI YOU THINK EASY FIND GO FIND YOURSELF LA.KNN. AND GREAT UH MY LOGISTICS 'HEAD' OUT OF COUNTRY MEANING I HAVE TO SETTLE LOGISTICS ALSO?! GND. LOGISTICS MEMBERS SO MANY THEY ALL CANNOT DO AH. I DONT CARE LIAO LA. WTFFFF. Everything throw to me. kns, find table and chair also i do. WHAT SHIT! And can the chairman stop telling me to do every single stuff? Can you ask your secretary help also. SHE SO FREE HOR. Always type type mass send email only. What she do? Go for every meeting only can. Then listen listen mass send email. wts. Why not we change roles la. Always ask the ex co do this and that then all only use talking. And cannot help us? F&B and logistics so many things to do can. gdi. Now ent quite free also la. LEFT us. Can you like help us call? Everything we call, we very free hor. So many things to call. Fuckkkk i got bk, elsie, scoop to call eh. Want me call lighting, tables and chairs also? Wts la. I hate it la. Why even ask me to be exco. why are we even in charge of the most major event in the whole dhlfm. WHY ): That's why am a bit sad over mst being over. Feb 1 just get over soon. Me is so piss over all this stuff. Fuck the event man. And what go for Christmas celebration at ___ house. OH damn, can i not go? Man, what excuses can i use Saturday, December 10, 2011
Me likey the red baseball jacket X whee like nice only. Woonhui going korea soon T.T jealous max. And she's helping me get stuff back yay ^^ She's super nice luh keep asking me want what hahaha :P POP today.. idk what to wear~~~ Friday, December 9, 2011
Feelings. Time to let it go. I will let it go slowly. Hopefully it will be okay. This week is a terrible week for me. MST+NEWS. My mst results are surely gonna be shitty. I have no mood to study and it's all so freaking hard especially SH&S. But it's a good thing that it all ends today. I don't know how many times I have cried this week especially during the night and during shower time. And I can't seem to smile this week. It alls is just an act. That image is stuck to my mind. That image and that image just won't match. I think as long as I don't think about the two images I won't cry. Hopefully. Everything ends today. A new beginning, a new chapter of life. Time to move on and let go of everything. Let it all sink down slowly. I guess Jac won't want to see us this way right? Goodbye Jac. & I miss you Jac. )': It's just a fake smile. I don't want my friends nor family to worry about me. I acted like it don't affect me but deep inside it's hurting so badly. I can see who truly care and who don't. It's just too obvious. One more thing, I hate it when people use me as a second choice. Like when they have no friends and they will find you. pfft I don't need that. DON'T EVER TREAT ME AS A SECOND OPTION BECAUSE I WILL THROW YOU AWAY. Don't talk to me if I'm just a second option, I don't need it. Especially if it is someone that you are close to treat you as a second option. It's irritating. It's the feeling of you being a rag doll and people treat you whatever they want. They want you, they take you. They don't want you, they throw you away. Anyway I'm just saying generally. Not targeted at a specific person. Just need to get this off my chest. Labels: last. Thursday, December 8, 2011
Life is that unpredictable It's the day today. I can't concentrate on the exam later, kept thinking about after the exam. Guess I'm not alone. I saw some one rt-ing about that too. Well siying did make me feel better ❤ I guess everyone is trying to pull people out of the situation. It seriously felt like a dream. Starting of Tuesday it felt like a dream. I can still remember what Jacq said to me. She asked me to eat more cos I'm so small. And she said I'm not small it's just petite and and she said guys like small girls so they can protect them. And I know she have a 190 bf. it all feels like yesterday First mr Ong asking if everyone knows who is Jacq. And said that she collapses. I thought he meant she fell down and injured herself. Never have I know this happen. And he said she passed away. The whole lecture hall turns silent, it's just too shocking,too sudden for us to accept it. My mid can't think. I thought it was a joke. It felt like a dream from then on. Amirah started crying badly infront of me. And there's this guy crying badly too(didnt see him before prolly first year or events course) and I look around the hall people start to tear. Carol have red swollen eyes(prolly from crying). My tears well up in my eyes. I'm like why?! Whyy! She's my fav lecturer and shes super nice. It's so unpredictable. I even dream of her on mon. I'm like so damn sad. I recall that I just couldn't get over the shock so when I'm walking towards the train station I didn't talk. Okay we didn't talk. It's too shocking. In the bus my tears is on the verge of flowing down but still I cried when I reach my house void deck. I cannot contain it anymore it's just too sad. I tried hard o study for exam but I can't. I think this time round my mst result will be the worst. I know Jacq would want us to score well but...we can't): I'm hoping everything is a dream. It's just too much. Only dhlfm and events course will understand the type of problem we are going through right now. And I saw Chloe's fb pic. She is so sweet. She wrote mummy I love you so much i miss you so badly, rest in peace and I promise i will do you proud. (': chloe must have gone through alot. Sorry for the lengthy post and I may be moody this time. Sorry cause I just can't get over with it. Edited: Going back home from the wake. I feel so pitiful towards her children. I'm afraid that when I see her I will cry. Well I only saw her upper part of her face. I'm afraid I will burst out crying. Till now I can't believe it. Her bubbly and lively personality is still stuck in my head. I really need time to get over it. It seems like yesterday. Jacq, you are the best teacher ever. Rest in peace. Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Bad december Oh my god. Tomorrow is the wake and I still can't accept it. I cannot believe it. I think I will cry a river after seeing people crying. I totally cannot accept it. It still have not settle down yet. I can't.... I keep thinking of Jacq. Do you know how much she means to us. She is more than a lecturer. She's our listening ear and someone we can lean on to. I just can't help but feeling sad. I know carol and kk will be more sad than us because they are close colleagues. And we can tell from it. Just reading at what carol posted on jac fb wall makes my heart pierce. It makes me more sad. Jacq ho we miss you so much. #JacHo you were a walking angel and you hid your wings. You now spread your wings and fly. We'll see you soaring as the brightest star. You are our greatest teacher. And you are truly a good teacher. I will always remember what you have taught us. (': Tuesday, December 6, 2011
It feels like just a dream Today is a sad day. Not because of mst but something else worst than that. It totally ruin my mood. I hope those lecturers keep their words about being sympathetic about the marks this time. I'm sure all dhlfm is greatly affected by this. It's just too sudden. Too sudden that I can't accept it. I wish everything is just a dream. It seems so unreal. I'm hoping that they will tell me it's a joke. Really really makes me so moodless. I just can't accept it. It have been ages since I cried. I guess this affects me too much. And I even cried infront of my mum it's just too much... It's confidential so I can't say much here. Gonna say it on my private blog. Bye. I can't even listen to in heaven right now. It totally...makes me cry harder Friday, December 2, 2011
T.T Next sem, we are going different classes different course. It's so sad ): But whatever it is, be it FM or HM, we are still under DHLFM. Thinking of different classes that we will be in makes me sad. Different timetable, different class. Maybe we will all get a new class. ): Anyway, I have to worry about the events stuff. Everything to be done by dec. LIKE WHUT. I have settle those catering stuff by the end of dec and seriously some people just don't do their jobs _l_ IDK why i choose f&b so damn much stuff to do. And some other committees (*coughssecretaryetccoughs*) dont need to do anything. If going for meeting and typing out what the meeting is about is called doing jobs, i can do it too okay. pfft. /justsaying. And they don't even bother helping. yes i know f&b and entertainment got like the most stuff to do. Financial kept relocating budget. logistics need find suppliers etc. TSK but what does the rest do uh *cough* pfft. I WILL NOT CARE ABOUT IT UNTIL END OF MST. I always feel emo listening to my blog song. But it's so nice and the meaning is so deep ): |
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